Sometimes I think I’m insane. I worry about the ride I’ll take on the ripple of my emotions. “Is it normal to be happy one moment, miserable the next? Is it typical to tell yourself, ‘I got this. I’m just going to get through this’ an hour before you send an email saying, adios, I’m done.”
Those are the questions I asked my dear friend one evening as we chatted in our pajamas. Her degree in social work/coaching experience, inviting eyes, and tell-me-your-troubles tone always puts me in the patient’s seat. So there I was, unloading my emotional baggage, dirty undergarments and all. We sorted through the mess. She assured me I was not at all crazy, and I slept peacefully that evening.
The next morning, I checked in with myself, a steaming mug of coffee in hand and a few good books in my lap. I listened to a Ted Talk and opened my heart to the love notes and safe handling instructions I was sure the universe was attempting to deliver. What I received was this profound message:
Our bodies know what we need. They signal our distress. There’s hunger when we’re famished, thirst when we’re parched, and dissatisfaction when something’s missing from our lives. Why was I feeding my physical body and ignoring the soul?
Those undulating emotions I was trying to wrangle were never going to level. There were needs I was ignoring, soul needs, that didn’t make sense to my logical mind. And so those needs kept bubbling to the surface, like a pot of hot liquid when the temperature’s right.
The Other F Word
Fine: it’s the other four letter word, and it’s just as profane as the curse word. According to Mel Robbins, author of Stop Saying You’re Fine: The No-BS Guide To Getting What You Want, most of us are constantly hitting the snooze button on our desires. Our resistance to change keeps us in the comfortable confines of our hamster wheels. We’re unhappy with the way things are, but we tell ourselves it’s fine.
We stay stuck in bad marriages, muddle through work we hate, and sleep through our gym sessions. Because it’s easier to be fine than fabulous. The latter takes effort, requires bold moves, and is beyond the ordinary we’re so accustomed to.
So yes, my hair may betray me (I’ve got that mad-scientist look in the morning), but I am not insane. Whew! I’m a human with a whole chemistry set of complex thoughts and emotions. I’ve been told I’m “all over the place.” But I have to believe that’s a compliment. Because at least I’m bad ass enough to get up and move when I’m not comfortable in my seat. Life is fluid, so why should we be stagnant? I’m just trying to find what feels right for me, and that might take some trial and error. So bear with me while I explore this life with all of the wonder and enthusiasm of a child in the park.
It’s Time to Get Real
In a previous post, I humbled myself and told my amazing blog audience that I had been fired. Spelling it out for the World Wide Web felt like standing on a table in a crowded room and pulling off my clothes. There I was, dimpled butt exposed for every eye to see. I’m so glad I decided to bare it all. Because that post was my most popular piece to date. I received emails and social media messages from people I’d never met. What I learned was that honesty is always the best policy.
So let me ask you this: Are you being honest with yourself? Are you listening to the inner nudges of your soul? Or are you feeding yourself the word fine?
Today’s a great day to make sh*t happen. Now is a good time to be happy, to operate in your gifts, and to let your passions off that leash.
Mantra: Today, I give my soul permission to speak, to explore, and to lead me to the life I yearn to live.
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